oh my oh my

I can't believe it!.. left the blogging realm since like forever..

Anyhoots.. I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(by popular demand.. huahuahuahua...)

Hmm let's just say I was living a soap opera for the past two months or so.

To be continued....

Durian!!!!!!!!!

Durian.. nyum nyummm! It's been a long long longgggggg time since I last had "real" durian (and blog. It's been like 2 months since my last update. wow~). Most of the local durians just don't fit my flavour. Ahuks.

And so, as usual, the very un-updated moi was the last to know about fidz! Urgh.. I feel so blur and blunt. Like, in the middle of our lunch at TPH, the clueless slash blind slash ignorant moi asked, "so u guys and fidz joined spanish class.. rite?. How was it?". (DOINK!) The reply goes: "G!~ Inda ko tau kah". (A big "?" above me). *blink blink* in disbelieve. Tapi cool on the outside. God knows what was going on in my mind.. and heart.. and mind. Then the heart. Watever. And so the story continues. The clueless, ignorant moi continued lunch as if nothing happened. Tapi dalam hati.. dushhhhhhh.. whattaheww.. What do I have to say?. Well guess what. I know fidz. I know she'll get through this. It might not go as smooth as the breeze at Tungku beach (what?), but I know she'll get through it. Come on pepz!, it's fidz. The mighty girl next door *winks winks all the way*. You have my prayers babe. Muahz muahz. I know I'm the last so I'll save all the lovey dovey sappy lame all sayings, poems and motos. ;-p

Huhuhuhu.. Believe it or not. I almost forgot about my bff's birthday. Jessiqua darling.. gomenasai!!!! *slap my forehead*.


Last nite was just unbelievably fun! Hahah.. Yes kaka M, last nite was splendid. There was a minute event going on over at aunt's place and it was pouring heavily! So my girls and I were out with our umbrellas (which didn't quite served it's purpose of shielding us against the rain) offering "umbrella services" to the ladies and gentlemen that attended (i.e. guests). It was practically nothing more than a perfect excuse to play with the rain! Hahha.. And so we were wet top to toe, well with minor exceptions, such as the face. *blink blink* (There goes my mascara). Talk about.. "Singing in the rain~" and "Under my umbrella.. ella~ ella~".. You know the rest of the lyrics.


I'm sleepy!!! I hope tomorrow will work out as planned!. Summer don't leave me so soon!!!!!

Hmm... I don't know why.. but I can't get a title for this blog entry. I mean I have one in mind. It's just that the box thingymejiggy for typing in the "title" doesn't seem to accept any input. Wtheyyll..

ANyhoots...... HIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehe :D... Did u miss me? U did? Oww.. how touching.. Though I could sniff some sarcasm in your tone. Fine! Don't miss me!. Just love me. :-p

Jokes lagi kah? Hsshh.. adang eh.. Relakkkzzz duluzz.. Oh btw, I just came back from the dentist and my dentals are bleeding. Ouch, I know. My laptop is in Singapore getting it's manicure and pedicure (tearing my hair out!). It takes almost 2 hours to download iTunes in Brunei, so my ipod's pretty empty. It's amazing how useless an ipod can be when it's empty. Muahahhaa.. Urgh.. life just couldn't get any wor.. *ehem*, I mean "BETTER".

Doctor: "Ada masalah with your teeth?"
Me: "Inda plang. Just the regular check up. Tapi doc, cam my gigi ani teshifted sikit."
Doctor: "Iakah? Well let's see. Say "Aaaaahh..!""
Me: I didn't say anything. I just opened my mouth and flared off my pearly not so white teeth.
Doctor: "Hmm.. They seem stable to me. Inda jua apa apa bah. In fact your teeth are in pretty good condition."
Me: "Izzit??? Wassuppp doc." Just kiddin! I didn't say that. I said: "Oh ok. Hmm.. but the teeth yang dapan ani cam menyenget sikit. Inda kah? macam maybe ada wisdom teeth pushing or somthing"
Doctor: "Capizz ko.. ku inject ko karang!" kidding again. She didn't say that. "Well they're pretty solid (while she knocks and presses my front teeth). I don't think you need to worry. But let me just measure it." She measures using a ruler. "Ok it's now 0.4 mm apart (difference between upper teeth and lower teeth). So on your next appointment, I'll remeasure it."

...Cleaning and grinding session in progress. 10 minutes later...

Me: "Orite. Thankz doctor!" Though I was hoping for a some stickers or some sugar-free peppermints. *sigh*.
Doctor: "Ok. Just maintain those teeth."

Moral of the story: Jangan cari pasal sama doctor. Habis ngingis gusi ku uleh nya.

So I'm back in Brunei.. haha batah.. Like bangas.
It feels gooooodd to be home. Though it took a couple of days to adjust to society (i.e. my humongous family). So many newbies. Newbies = new babies. Muahahahahha..

I haven't been online since I left Glasgow. That's like end of May. So went around Europe for a couple of weeks. Venice then Berlin. Both spots were full of surprises. I just lurvedddd it. I love travelling. I love observing the lives of others. It's amazing how we live in different parts around the world, but look up at the same sky everyday. Me and my philosophical thoughts. Just ignore me. Muahahhaa... Jet lagged pakah masih aku anie.

Toodles!

Hello panda

Before I start my tale of Hello Panda Bear, let me whine about my fudging kelinking!!! It fudging hurts.. hiks.. hiks.. Have you ever woken up one lovely morning, and discover that you have a sumpak kelingking? Blegh..

Sorry if I spoilt your appetite. :-D (That was part of the plan *evil laugh*).

The tale of a heroic Hello Panda

Once upon a time in far far away land known as Mesa de la Oji, lived a nameless, jogging panda called.. hello! nameless. nameless.. no name bah.. no name.. no name...

On his pit stop, a monster "thing" sneaked up behind him.. and he screamed, "Ahhh.. Uhhhh.. hantu kah apa nih?.. Boh apakan ku.."..


And before he could finish his sentence, the "thing" grabbed him gently.. eh salah.. fiercely. Yet, a smile laid on his face. (cana jua...).


Under a spotlight, another "thing" came (kambar nya kali.. si "thing" 2).. They held him tight.. and yup.. the hello panda is still smiling.


His yelling and taunting finally paid off when a tentera appeared from the dark forest. Jeng jeng jeng.. steady panda seekong ah.. siap ngan driver golf lagi tu. Setahi..


The evening sunlight shone on them, enlighten them... giving them strength and wisdom.. Then the leader spoke out (in a minnie mouse squeaky tone), "let him go! You midget!"..(uhhuh.. look who's talking)..

The "thing" is mute.. so he replied.. His mute. Hello.. M U T E.. mute.. mute bah mute.. So he replied.. IN SIGN LANGUAGE... "No way!.. Muahahahah..kepala hotak engkaw.."

The hello panda discussed amongst themselves.. "shshhss shsh hhshs.." (Hello panda language bah.. ) which translates to, "aiks.. pandai cakap melayu monster nya.. cuba bagi salam.. Islam kali..".. So they whispered .. "one.. two.. three.. GO!".. (shouted with all their heart)...."Assalamolekomzzzzz~~~".

The hello panda held hostage was so exhilarated when he saw his friends. "Wa'alaikumsalamz frenzz... its about time!".. Sibuk sibuk tia jua kan menyaut.. Tapi hostage masih.


All of the sudden.. the "thing" senyum. (In sign language). And he spoke.. in sign language again.. which translates to..(indirect translation nie.. bukan babel fish).. "Auw bah.. aku tu beibun saja.. kekeke.. nah ambil chia balik kawan mu ah.. inda nyaman.. aku suka perisa strawberry.. Kamu ani puak chocolate.. "

And so the hello panda returned to his village safe and sound.

The end.

Cerita ini adalah rekaan semata-mata. Tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup, yang mati, yang balum lahir, yang reincarnated. :-p

If you're curious.. background nya atu.. notes "Operating System". Masa ku take a break while revising. Testuck bah utak ku.. input buffer overloaded. Apa lagi.. buat lah ceta.

Director: Oji
Casting By: Oji
Production: Oji Sdn inda berhad.

Touch me ouch.

Hahaha.. Uiiiiiiiii I like!.. Thankz ka Mmngz for the fabulousssss tribute.. Kwekwekwe.. Want some potato pakai jacket?? Nada mozarella cheese... kurang umph.. ~ ah well... I can't wait to eat your cookingzz.. *drooling sampai banjerrr*.. keke


and this is my lunch/dinner.. chicken kebab ala UK... (pita kebab brunei!! sia sia pun *pointing my forehead, my nose, my mouth*).. Inda ku tehabiskan masa lunch.. recycle lah masa dinner.. hahaha.. I so love the colour of the pickle.. Nyaman bah usulnya.. tapi inda ku makan.. hahhaha.....



Exams are driving me cuckooo. After a whole 2 days of Operating System smackdown, I couldn't sleep the night before the exam! Macam cacing panas!!! Toleh kanan toleh kiri.. golek golek cam ayam panggang.. *nyaman tu eh*.. anyway besides that, the point is.. hahaha.. pokok pangkalnya, I finally dozed off like around quarter to 6.. and before I was totally of indulging my lala land.. tick.. tock.. tick.. la la la la~~ goes my alarm!!! Fudgeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Blegh.. mau inda mau.. bangun saja tah.. apakanz.. inda sampai sejam pun ku tidoo.. mentallllll~~


Apanya si kawan.. first paper was a walk in the park.. My buttocks!!.. full of illusion.. ahahha. You wanna know what the side effects of sleep deprivation and after-exam postmortem looks like:

Result:

• Legs crossed on the table
  
• hugging harriz..
  
• watching Elfen lied.. nonstop bloodshed.. not to mention nudity. (i see the guys googling the keyword "Elfen lied" already).. *rising one eyebrow, stroking chin* :-p

Fruits anyone?

I 've been craving for fruits. So voila.. my fruit salad.. Colourful bah.. I couldn't resist taking a shot .

Ingredients:

3 biji strawberries
1/3 of a green apple (shiny ones)
3.44 grapes (red ones)
3.56 green grapes (seedless)

Technique membuat:

chop up the fruits sesuka hati. (n.b: jangan pakai lasung.. bau blacan tia). Pour some of your favourite sauce or syrup. E.g. maple syrup (my personal fav), honey, yogurt, kicap or chilli maggi... kidding kidding.. Ada ni karang org lurus bendul. kekeke.

Itadakimas!!





woisssssssssshhhhhhhhh.. I'm so tired!

I just had the most important conversation!. haha.. Nothing important.. It's just that it was a chat with my bestfriends. I love you both so much Fion n Xiqua!

I've been jalaning quite a lot for the past couple of days. Stress kali. keke.

Waaaaaaaaa... got so many things to do. I want moreeeeeee time. I want to study.. I want to draw.. I want to stitch.. I want to knit.. I want to cook.. I want to read the book I just bought from borders... and so on and so forth. My list of "I WANT TO" is practically endless..

Exam inda lagi batah, but I'm still lazing around. The book is so addictive! I can't stop... waaaa help me!.. Ayudame!! Picked up a book titled 'From my sisters' lips' by Na'ima B. Robert. One word--> Fantabulous!. I know there's no such word.. well there is.. hehe.. :D

I'll probably write a review on it once I finish reading. That is, if I ever do. Which I will.. eventually. Exams are clogging my social activities!! It's like I have 3 weeks to fret about my exams.. when there's only 3 papers to whine about. Urgh.. talk about a span of time! But i'm not complaning or anything.. just whining. Feels good to whine.. doesn't it girls?. :-P

Dazzling.. you wanna see my unicorn kah. Nah for u and the girlz.. :

My Vaio. My Frenz.

Katil ku masa ani meriah. I have several friends occupying some space. I've got 4 keldai, an itik (aka si Yellow), a rabbit.. sounds like a farm... i know.. then there's Harriz the teddy bear, elephant.. macam zoo lah *glancing at my toys. Rising up my left eyebrow like Ziana zain*. I think that's about it.. oh yeah how can I forget.. My big dragon/unicorn.. si Purple.

cute lah!!... No no.. not the guys. I meant the rabbits. Keke.

I just finish cleansing my vaio. With the aid of some cotton balls, two expired subway tickets and a spill of water.. my vaio is now super-shiny. Why the subway tickets? --> to dig out all the habuks and uras in between the celahs of the keyboard and touchpad and punats punats..

Tick tock tick tock..pikir bomb.. rupanya my watch! Skadar~~ I don't know how my watch landed next to my right ear when I woke up this morning. EEeeeeeeeee... I like spring!! The pokokz outside my window are sooo GREEEEENNNNNNNN!!!

I'm menjahiting (cross-stitching to be exact) a rabbit with some poppy flowers. It's a present for my freeenn.. It's looking great.. I think *scratching my forehead, just above the corner of my right eye*. Selena is dragging me to the movies in like an hour and a half. So I have to get ready within and hour or so.. I don't know why but I'm kinda sleeeeeeeeepyyyyyy... kkkerrrrrrrhhhhh... But still I wanna go watch Painted Veil.

Deathnote

L des.. Urgh Deathnote. Someone get me off the hook! L is just so the very hoteee... Yeah yeah.. I'm nuts.. fallin for an anime character. There's just sumthin about him..

Ahh.. finally... a good movie. "Next": Nicholas Cage and Jessica Biel... Ttsszz... Sizzless... *licks the tip of my "burned" finger*.. 2 minute overlook of the future can make life so much simpler.. or not. But hey, 2 minutes is better than none. If I was to have such powerzz.. hmm.. probably I'll stop myself from falling down the ditch.. and pricking my finger.. and papercutting my chin.. Things that I can run away from or undo within 2 minutes.. Stop. Don't bother reflexing. Think. Rewind 2 minutes ago. Relive. Nice~~~

The treadmill is killing my back!! But I just lurveeeeeeeeeee the part of exercising called "stretching".. Fuuwwwwhhh....... I just lurvvvveeeee all the stretching and bending and flexing.. but it's only worth when you start it off with a heavy workout. Hence the treadmill run.. Anything that keeps me sweaty babehh.. *stretching my back.. I'm getting old*.. Don't worry, I always get a good, steamy rinse after... with loads of sweet scented soap and lemon flavored face scrub..

No more bl**dy fr*ekin assignments.... though I need to touch up a bit on my blog... no no.. not this blog.. my blog that I created from scratch. One more demo on monday.. Hope it goes well *fingers knotted in a twisted way*.. Then exams... Blerghhhh..

Urghhh

kusut kusut~ kusut sekusut-kusutnya..

It's like 8:45 jam bunai and hmm.. jap (I'm calculating..).. 1:45 am jam UK. I seriously feel lost this semesterrrr..... banarrrrrrr.. Makin sikit subject, makin malas.. haha. Biasalers.

What keeps me relaxed? Anything but uni-related work. Yup, even emptying the rubbish bin is relaxing. Hahaha. I have this habit of messing my room so that I have something to do (i.e. clean-up). I know I'm weird. Haha.. We all are.. so face it!

I cook out of boredom. I clean-up out of boredom.. It's all part of my distress therapy. Cause even more stressful than uni-work----> doing absolutely nothing. Doing laundry, doing the dishes, vacuuming the carpet, folding up my just-tumble dried clothes, rearranging my bed along with all my dolls (my teddies and my eeyores!!).. hmm what else?.. oh yeah, folding my clothes (i said that twice cause i just love folding my clothes.. don't ask~) , eating apples, eating cookies, fiddling with my nokia, pluggin my ears with my ipod (it's the earpiece that get's plugged in.. not the ipod itself.. keke), soaked up with Filipino drama "Sana'y wala nang wakas", finishing off "Deathnote" at night, listening to crappy un-updated music, gym, shower, pray (the praying times are totally off the chart.. I mean isya at 11++pm.. not that i'm complaining or anything.. I always sleep late anyway..), staring at the dark sky... I think that's about it.

I'm such a slow eater.. I should call myself "slow-eater". I can take an hour just to finish an apple. It makes no difference if I concentrate on my food or talk while I eat. Hmmmmmm... Ok back to work..! *sigh*

OS

Sometimes.... sometimes. Sometimes it's better if we just let the guys do the job. Especially when it comes to Operating System and System Software coursework. Haha.. what we're you thinking? Naughty naughty..

So now duolulu is going to start his speech on "how to do soalan pertama". And after just 34 seconds, he goes blabbering about something else. Typical him! Some tips: when you talk to duolulu make sure he drank his cup of tea or swallowed his entire meal.. coz he just can't concentrate when there's something edible around!

Okay I think I better press punat "seriusss". I desperately need it.

Urgh.. this baka duolulu can't understand this sentence!: "Can you please wait until I publish it before you read it."

CS + cousin si Oji a.k.a sal a.k.a saleha a.k.a salwa a.k.a kasit @ Nando's ...
Ayamm nyumm nyummmm.....

Em hai ye ma~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

Yuhuuu~~

Woo hoooooooooo!


It's been like eonssss since I last tulis in my blog. Haha. Just kidding.

Hmmm. What an easter. In a blink of an eye, it disappeared. Fuwwhhhh.... My last couple of weeks were probably the most hectic. Celebrated Maulud Nabi the night we were gonna leave for Paris.. Oui Monseuir! (Did i get the spelling right??). Anyhoots, after Paris, stayed in London for a couple of nights then back to Glasgow. Waaaaaa..... capek banget loh!

I couldn't help it! I just had to post this picture!!... hahahahhaha... They were nasyid-ing btw... and trust me.. they sound good! Macam Hijjaz gitu.. kekeke.

And this.. I just can't explain.. Ustazahs yo!

Selena!!! Don't cry for me Disneyland~~.. Hahhaa.. auw bah auw bah...

Impossible yet possible

If what I've heard today is true, then all I can say is life is unfair..

Mengharap cinta yang tak mungkin...
Perlukah aku teruskan?
Mampukah aku berhenti?
Oh Tuhan, berikan aku jawapan...

- W.D

[Semua text adalah rekaan semata-mata. Tiada berkenaan dengan yang hidup mahupun yang mati].

Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why wait till I fall deep into the pit hole? Now you're the one who's shutting the doors.

Seandainya..

Mereka meraung-raung pilu,
Tatkala nafas mu berakhir,
Namun hati ku tersentak, kaku,
Setitis air mata pun tak mengalir.

-W. D.

National Day 2007

Hari Kebangsaan Negara Brunei Darussalam @ Glasgow.

Aiks? Apasal background Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri? Salah occasion nie.!

Brunei boleh!

Ya Allah lanjutkan lah usia.. Kebawah Duli Yang Maha Mulia...~~Makaning and ceritaing

emotionally unstable

The past two weeks were probably the hardest weeks I've ever experienced in Scotland. I was emotionally unstable. Curiosity kills the cat. So i'm still alive, yet curiosity killed my emotions. I felt so numb. Why did the word "love" suddenly appear in my dictionary?

What's pass is past. The future holds a better place. Hhh.. I can't believe this is happening to me. A love chain... One liking a person who likes another. I finally got the courage to dictate this matter. So please don't bother me with further questions. Two weeks is long enough to make me ill. Two long weeks of depression.. Is it too much for me to handle? Can I take another week? Argh... I'm so blank..!

I wish luv is simple as it looks. She likes him, he loves her. The end. But damnit! It's too complex to even be a word! Even the oxford dictionary is too minimal. The word "love" on its own should be a separate dictionary altogether. Who can explain what love is? Arghh~~! How do one get rid of this weird, tangy, deadening feeling.

I'm not saying I'm in love.

Pilu

Jasad mu dimamah bumi,
Cinta mu tersemat dihati,
Untuk selamanya ku merindui,
Ku berserah pada ilahi.

- Wajihah D.


(Best of words are words from the heart.)

Stresssssssshhhhhhhhhh

I don't want to be in the Spotlight....

Alas the sand glass

And so.. I found a friend online!.. Woohoo!... Yup.. found jauinah online..
It's absurd this internet thing .. sometimes..
So flickering through the list of friends of friends in "facebook", I came across an extremely familiar name... and so.. ta da!

Workload isn't quite piling up.. but the deadlines.. more like 'death'-lines.. are definitely pushing me off the cliff! I'm losing my rhythm of life!!

Immature! ==> meaningful. (according to a ching-gu)...!

Come to think of it.. feels nice to dwell into memories of the past. From Singapore, back to Brunei.. again to Singapore then back again, Brunei.. alas.. Scotland. What do I get from living in many places? The most valuable thing? Hmm....Probably my friends... My list of friends is practically endless.. I can't keep track of everyone.. I wish I could!

The story of my life begins... The crazy times are the best moments. But there are also "weird" times. I still remember feeling so awkward and alienated when I first returned to Brunei for good (well, for six years at least..) for the first time...went to a local school. Why do they keep looking at me as if I'm from outer space? What's so great about coming from overseas? Just because I can't speak fluent malay.. and my english is totally american, doesn't make me not bruneian. Does it?

I still need to know more about my country. I was practically culture-shock in my own country. Haha. I know it sounds ridiculous.. but it's true. I'm learning how to lose my American accent.. and I have to say I'm doing well. People barely notice it.. So that's a headstart. Second, I need to learn more special bruneian words. Like.. "auw bah..", "mmm kali jua.."... Hehe.. Getting lots of help from my cousins and bruneian friends!

No matter what language I speak, people I hang out with.. school I go to.. Nothing feels as cool as being 100% bruneian. It's a shame I didn't know much about my country. I could've showed-off my country to my friends! After ISB, I think I was much more Bruneian. Hehehe.. that's coz most my friends in ISB are Bruneian. Though we spoke english in School, at least I had to speak malay when I'm outta school. I still remember talking to this chinese dude at some car workhop in English.. then he was like.. "Can u speak in malay?". Haha. I just laughed my head off. Then I left the rest of the talking to my friend.. since my malay sucks.

Enuf said.. I wanna look for my friends from primary school. I remember names and faces.. but no contact info what so ever. Haha.. sekolah rendah anggerik desa.. (woohoo! I still remember the name of my school!.. it's soo long u know..)... Those days when my brother was always in trouble because of me.! Azman..sheila.. diana.. zurah.. Where are u guys?? Haha.. I even remember my teachers name.. not that I want to. (hehe)

Then there's sekolah rendah kiarong (the names longer.. but can't remember it.. keke).. Hakim.. Sia.. Audi.. Jawinah.. Huda.. Siti Hawa.. Zarina.. Hmm... I can't believe I still remember u guys.

Even STPRI friends... though I was in STPRI for like a month only.. I don't know why.. but the names I remember most are filzah and shazana.. Hmm.. I wonder where they are? I bet they don't even remember me.

To my beloved friends.

Clicking through my blog, dating way back to January last year, I felt a great sting through my spine. Those days.. those UBD days.. felicities and sorrows of those days filled the every moment of my final teenage year... Without much realisation, I've been writing for just over a year in this blog. So much of my life are engraved in this very blog.. yet my life has been a composition of far too many events.

Sunrise till sunset.. my life cycles endlessly (.. at least, I wish it will). Just by reading a couple of blog entries, it's prominent than my life, my mood, my personality has gone through a phase change. I can't really explain what happened.. but the atmosphere of my writings in Brunei are far more blissful.. far more cheerful than the ones I've written couple of months ago. I can't seem to figure out why this is so... when many exciting events have taken place ever since I moved to Scotland.. Going to London, visiting Hong Kong.. holiday in Barca, day trip to Edinburgh.. All good, happy days. Yet I'm not content. What do I lack?

The real agenda I had in mind was to write about my friends. My two dearest friends, pids n eechut. I miss everyone dearly, actually. I can't stop thinking about Brunei.. especially after the exam period.. Life felt so dragging.. so heavy.. days so gloomy.. Couple of days have passed by ever since I heard about their results. My first thought, 'I wish I could be by their sides, I wish I could just go back, even for a day.. or even an hour. I just want to make sure that they're fine'. I seemed calm outside. Again my specialty (or curse) overtakes me. I always have this habit to just look calm.. when the truth is I'm boiling deep inside. There were far too many thoughts juggling in my mind. The only thing that kept me intact was the fact that I know... I know for sure that both girls are strong as strong can be. I know it's hard. I know it seems impossible. But just hang in there. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward. Don't look back.. don't ever bother to look back for even a glimpse of the past... cause the further away you are from the past, the brighter the future will be.