Clicking through my blog, dating way back to January last year, I felt a great sting through my spine. Those days.. those UBD days.. felicities and sorrows of those days filled the every moment of my final teenage year... Without much realisation, I've been writing for just over a year in this blog. So much of my life are engraved in this very blog.. yet my life has been a composition of far too many events.
Sunrise till sunset.. my life cycles endlessly (.. at least, I wish it will). Just by reading a couple of blog entries, it's prominent than my life, my mood, my personality has gone through a phase change. I can't really explain what happened.. but the atmosphere of my writings in Brunei are far more blissful.. far more cheerful than the ones I've written couple of months ago. I can't seem to figure out why this is so... when many exciting events have taken place ever since I moved to Scotland.. Going to London, visiting Hong Kong.. holiday in Barca, day trip to Edinburgh.. All good, happy days. Yet I'm not content. What do I lack?
The real agenda I had in mind was to write about my friends. My two dearest friends, pids n eechut. I miss everyone dearly, actually. I can't stop thinking about Brunei.. especially after the exam period.. Life felt so dragging.. so heavy.. days so gloomy.. Couple of days have passed by ever since I heard about their results. My first thought, 'I wish I could be by their sides, I wish I could just go back, even for a day.. or even an hour. I just want to make sure that they're fine'. I seemed calm outside. Again my specialty (or curse) overtakes me. I always have this habit to just look calm.. when the truth is I'm boiling deep inside. There were far too many thoughts juggling in my mind. The only thing that kept me intact was the fact that I know... I know for sure that both girls are strong as strong can be. I know it's hard. I know it seems impossible. But just hang in there. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward. Don't look back.. don't ever bother to look back for even a glimpse of the past... cause the further away you are from the past, the brighter the future will be.
5 comments:
hi og:')i cant help it but nangis after reading ur blog;'((thanx for ur advice..sedih kami p mayb we're meant to be here ja..insyallah u'll be seeing zat,liyana,suria n rizah end of this yr d Scotland:D how i wish u were here Og:(i cried when i got d results, n tried g kan check myb aku tsalah liatkah but yep nada...nada semangat ku tyme atu...NIL berabis..p bila dfikirkan balik,pa pun life must go on rite?tpkir ku kan ko dis few days,upanya bcos u were thinking of us jua;)we'll try our best here and insyallah graduate wif a gud result,amin..
hehe.. I think about you guys everyday.. but lately, been missing you guys even more. Don't need to thank me lah. I just wanted to say what I felt. But eitherway, I'm soooooooooo happy to hear from u! Come to think of it, we've been separated for more than half a year. I think a couple more months wouldn't hurt.. rite? Looking at the brightside, you guys don't need to go through what we went through. Missing home, missing family.. It's really hard u know..
sob~sob~~
waduh waduh ~~ Gue itu sih pengen supaya kamu lebih semanget.. Bukan nangis dong.. Now stop what ur doing. Smile! your on candid camera~ Keke.. Love u girlz.
Aja aja fightin!
Semangat!!! Jgn jadi mls cam aku. Apala.
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