OS

Sometimes.... sometimes. Sometimes it's better if we just let the guys do the job. Especially when it comes to Operating System and System Software coursework. Haha.. what we're you thinking? Naughty naughty..

So now duolulu is going to start his speech on "how to do soalan pertama". And after just 34 seconds, he goes blabbering about something else. Typical him! Some tips: when you talk to duolulu make sure he drank his cup of tea or swallowed his entire meal.. coz he just can't concentrate when there's something edible around!

Okay I think I better press punat "seriusss". I desperately need it.

Urgh.. this baka duolulu can't understand this sentence!: "Can you please wait until I publish it before you read it."

CS + cousin si Oji a.k.a sal a.k.a saleha a.k.a salwa a.k.a kasit @ Nando's ...
Ayamm nyumm nyummmm.....

Em hai ye ma~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

Yuhuuu~~

Woo hoooooooooo!


It's been like eonssss since I last tulis in my blog. Haha. Just kidding.

Hmmm. What an easter. In a blink of an eye, it disappeared. Fuwwhhhh.... My last couple of weeks were probably the most hectic. Celebrated Maulud Nabi the night we were gonna leave for Paris.. Oui Monseuir! (Did i get the spelling right??). Anyhoots, after Paris, stayed in London for a couple of nights then back to Glasgow. Waaaaaa..... capek banget loh!

I couldn't help it! I just had to post this picture!!... hahahahhaha... They were nasyid-ing btw... and trust me.. they sound good! Macam Hijjaz gitu.. kekeke.

And this.. I just can't explain.. Ustazahs yo!

Selena!!! Don't cry for me Disneyland~~.. Hahhaa.. auw bah auw bah...

Impossible yet possible

If what I've heard today is true, then all I can say is life is unfair..

Mengharap cinta yang tak mungkin...
Perlukah aku teruskan?
Mampukah aku berhenti?
Oh Tuhan, berikan aku jawapan...

- W.D

[Semua text adalah rekaan semata-mata. Tiada berkenaan dengan yang hidup mahupun yang mati].

Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why wait till I fall deep into the pit hole? Now you're the one who's shutting the doors.

Seandainya..

Mereka meraung-raung pilu,
Tatkala nafas mu berakhir,
Namun hati ku tersentak, kaku,
Setitis air mata pun tak mengalir.

-W. D.

National Day 2007

Hari Kebangsaan Negara Brunei Darussalam @ Glasgow.

Aiks? Apasal background Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri? Salah occasion nie.!

Brunei boleh!

Ya Allah lanjutkan lah usia.. Kebawah Duli Yang Maha Mulia...~~Makaning and ceritaing

emotionally unstable

The past two weeks were probably the hardest weeks I've ever experienced in Scotland. I was emotionally unstable. Curiosity kills the cat. So i'm still alive, yet curiosity killed my emotions. I felt so numb. Why did the word "love" suddenly appear in my dictionary?

What's pass is past. The future holds a better place. Hhh.. I can't believe this is happening to me. A love chain... One liking a person who likes another. I finally got the courage to dictate this matter. So please don't bother me with further questions. Two weeks is long enough to make me ill. Two long weeks of depression.. Is it too much for me to handle? Can I take another week? Argh... I'm so blank..!

I wish luv is simple as it looks. She likes him, he loves her. The end. But damnit! It's too complex to even be a word! Even the oxford dictionary is too minimal. The word "love" on its own should be a separate dictionary altogether. Who can explain what love is? Arghh~~! How do one get rid of this weird, tangy, deadening feeling.

I'm not saying I'm in love.

Pilu

Jasad mu dimamah bumi,
Cinta mu tersemat dihati,
Untuk selamanya ku merindui,
Ku berserah pada ilahi.

- Wajihah D.


(Best of words are words from the heart.)

Stresssssssshhhhhhhhhh

I don't want to be in the Spotlight....

Alas the sand glass

And so.. I found a friend online!.. Woohoo!... Yup.. found jauinah online..
It's absurd this internet thing .. sometimes..
So flickering through the list of friends of friends in "facebook", I came across an extremely familiar name... and so.. ta da!

Workload isn't quite piling up.. but the deadlines.. more like 'death'-lines.. are definitely pushing me off the cliff! I'm losing my rhythm of life!!

Immature! ==> meaningful. (according to a ching-gu)...!

Come to think of it.. feels nice to dwell into memories of the past. From Singapore, back to Brunei.. again to Singapore then back again, Brunei.. alas.. Scotland. What do I get from living in many places? The most valuable thing? Hmm....Probably my friends... My list of friends is practically endless.. I can't keep track of everyone.. I wish I could!

The story of my life begins... The crazy times are the best moments. But there are also "weird" times. I still remember feeling so awkward and alienated when I first returned to Brunei for good (well, for six years at least..) for the first time...went to a local school. Why do they keep looking at me as if I'm from outer space? What's so great about coming from overseas? Just because I can't speak fluent malay.. and my english is totally american, doesn't make me not bruneian. Does it?

I still need to know more about my country. I was practically culture-shock in my own country. Haha. I know it sounds ridiculous.. but it's true. I'm learning how to lose my American accent.. and I have to say I'm doing well. People barely notice it.. So that's a headstart. Second, I need to learn more special bruneian words. Like.. "auw bah..", "mmm kali jua.."... Hehe.. Getting lots of help from my cousins and bruneian friends!

No matter what language I speak, people I hang out with.. school I go to.. Nothing feels as cool as being 100% bruneian. It's a shame I didn't know much about my country. I could've showed-off my country to my friends! After ISB, I think I was much more Bruneian. Hehehe.. that's coz most my friends in ISB are Bruneian. Though we spoke english in School, at least I had to speak malay when I'm outta school. I still remember talking to this chinese dude at some car workhop in English.. then he was like.. "Can u speak in malay?". Haha. I just laughed my head off. Then I left the rest of the talking to my friend.. since my malay sucks.

Enuf said.. I wanna look for my friends from primary school. I remember names and faces.. but no contact info what so ever. Haha.. sekolah rendah anggerik desa.. (woohoo! I still remember the name of my school!.. it's soo long u know..)... Those days when my brother was always in trouble because of me.! Azman..sheila.. diana.. zurah.. Where are u guys?? Haha.. I even remember my teachers name.. not that I want to. (hehe)

Then there's sekolah rendah kiarong (the names longer.. but can't remember it.. keke).. Hakim.. Sia.. Audi.. Jawinah.. Huda.. Siti Hawa.. Zarina.. Hmm... I can't believe I still remember u guys.

Even STPRI friends... though I was in STPRI for like a month only.. I don't know why.. but the names I remember most are filzah and shazana.. Hmm.. I wonder where they are? I bet they don't even remember me.

To my beloved friends.

Clicking through my blog, dating way back to January last year, I felt a great sting through my spine. Those days.. those UBD days.. felicities and sorrows of those days filled the every moment of my final teenage year... Without much realisation, I've been writing for just over a year in this blog. So much of my life are engraved in this very blog.. yet my life has been a composition of far too many events.

Sunrise till sunset.. my life cycles endlessly (.. at least, I wish it will). Just by reading a couple of blog entries, it's prominent than my life, my mood, my personality has gone through a phase change. I can't really explain what happened.. but the atmosphere of my writings in Brunei are far more blissful.. far more cheerful than the ones I've written couple of months ago. I can't seem to figure out why this is so... when many exciting events have taken place ever since I moved to Scotland.. Going to London, visiting Hong Kong.. holiday in Barca, day trip to Edinburgh.. All good, happy days. Yet I'm not content. What do I lack?

The real agenda I had in mind was to write about my friends. My two dearest friends, pids n eechut. I miss everyone dearly, actually. I can't stop thinking about Brunei.. especially after the exam period.. Life felt so dragging.. so heavy.. days so gloomy.. Couple of days have passed by ever since I heard about their results. My first thought, 'I wish I could be by their sides, I wish I could just go back, even for a day.. or even an hour. I just want to make sure that they're fine'. I seemed calm outside. Again my specialty (or curse) overtakes me. I always have this habit to just look calm.. when the truth is I'm boiling deep inside. There were far too many thoughts juggling in my mind. The only thing that kept me intact was the fact that I know... I know for sure that both girls are strong as strong can be. I know it's hard. I know it seems impossible. But just hang in there. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward. Don't look back.. don't ever bother to look back for even a glimpse of the past... cause the further away you are from the past, the brighter the future will be.

:_(

Another movie marathon. Blood and Chocolate -> Epic Movie -> Music & lyric. Thank god we watched the movie in this sequence!. Started with a warewolf movie, then moved on to a slightly lame comedy. Then topped it off with a cheerful, romantic movie... Music & Lyrics starring Hugh Grant (gorgeous.. gorgeous.. at least for his age. Keke!) and Drew Berrymore.

Haven't been feeling great lately. Maybe I'm sick. I'm not sure. Or is it just me denying it? Had a bit of flu, slight stomach ache.. a bit of headache and coughing. But I guess it's just a way of my body warning me.. I ought to wear more clothings. Winter is reaching it's peak. Yet, no snow. Pathetic.

"Music & Lyrics"- simple title. It's subtle on it's on way, but what I like most was the way the humour are tweaked in a smart-sarcastic way. Though the 'bigger than britney and christina put together' girl was a bit disturbing in her on way. I mean... what on god's earth is she trying to be? A sexy monk maybe. (Kekekeke... sexual and religious just don't go well together).

Tomorrow shall be a better day! Cause I declared so. :-p

WeekEND

Assalamualaikum.. waalaikumsalam..
Sapa di situ? Aku di sini..

Hmm.. I have to say I had one of the best weekends in Scotland. No kindosbuenos.. No fart.. Just JOKING!.. (I see her running to me with a gun! <- phewwwh.. just my imagination).. Exams ended.. Saturday was "shop to the eXtreme day" and today.. we went to Braehead.. Didn't expect we were gonna be there pass noon.. but hey.. guess what, we practically spend the whole day there! (the word 'day' implies; pre-sunset). Played pool with the guys and the girls (more like I forced the girls.. keke.. devil!). Then jeng jeng.. Took a snap with kevin keagan!

Caught a couple of movies. Saturday night, 'smoking aces'.. Excellent but crap. Excellent refers to action wise and alicia keys's debut.. and crap for the feel of the story.. Had no feeling what so ever.. intro after intro and no clear turning point! Like wada fudge?
Just finished watching 'Stephen King IT' - the return of the clown. My brain's absorbing too much violence! That explains the sleepless nights.. Gotta end this!

Happy New Years

Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah 1428H .. Hmmphh... mesti set resolution ni..

Ka Sit buang boring sms: "Sentiasalah setting niat, upgrade iman, download sabar, upload usaha, delete dosa, update doa dan top-up ilmu supaya dapat redeem pahala banyak banyak".. sounds hmm... very voucher-istic.

Fantastico!


Snooker Update: Ding won! Woohoo... 19 yr old talented dude.. Damn.

Saga Master

Hendry vs Ding.. sapa manang ah?? Hmmph.. Ding is so young!

Woo hoo!

Alhamdulillah!!! Exams over... woo hoo.. celebrate... !! Ada kah patut exam dalam church.. kuang kuang kuang..

Where is waji?

Picasso

Last night, well i meant the night before last nite (considering it's 4 am now!), selena, kindosbuenos and yo went out for a "ladies nite out" .... Well it was more of a recompensation of the long, dragging, winding pre-exam tutorial session we had earlier in the evening...... Ah!!.. I'm so not a big fan of that subject!..

so yeah.. anyway, we girls decided to head back to our lurvely flat and dropped our books. Ssssssssttttttttarrrrrrrrvvvvvvvvinnnnnnnngg as we were.. we simply had to get out the house a.s.a.p and hunt for food!!.. Alas, McD's! Wahahhahah....
Ate the regular filet-o-ikan and apple pies. Then it was time for movies!!.. But on the way, there was this book store with signs calling out "clearance sale", "last day", "bla bla % off!"... And so the devils caught us and I bought a couple of books.. and kechengcheng goes my money.. Urgh, and we just had this discussion over our McD meal about saving up for our imaginary tour to USA.. Haha.. yup.. ambitious as it sounds, I soooo wanna go to US and visit my bestfriend!!.. Bought some art books. Great!! or should I say Fabuloussssssssssss!!.. hahaha.. One was originally 30 pounds, and the price was cut down to about 10 pounds!.. Kerrraazeee... Uhhuh..

Heading the cinema, kindosbuenos was arguing that we girls had no life.. cause we enjoy reading. and more particularly, art books!. I mean she has this thing against art... Dang!, don't you get it? Art is beau-ti-ful.. Like, brabisly dangz.. You should reconsider your so called passion de gavellanes for pinano (nope it's not a typo.. it's pinano).. Hahhaha... Ok lah.. You're forgiven dang, I know art isn't quite the cup of tea for everyone.. but at least you should appreciate pieces of salvador dali or picasso!
The movie marathon went for over 4 hours i think. "Employee of the month" followed by "Miss Potter". The former is extra hilarious.. witty.. and the latter is splendid. I love the part where Jessica Simpson shows of her jumbo ears! It's so hilarious..! I mean she looks so cute.. (uhhuh, ugly but adorable).. But I have to say it was just another lazy saturday evening movie. Then "Miss Potter", luv it luv it luv it. Though kindos continued arguing about art!.. cause the movie included bits of art - sketches and watercolour paintings of cartoon character. Hahha.. So yeah, she trashed the movie totally. But selena and I just loved it. It was so... hmm... nice. I love the way Beatrix Potter (played by Renee Zellweger) described the first few lines of a story as "delicious" - simply because you never know where the first word will take you. But it was rather melodramatic... I mean the boyfriend DIED!! Ahhh... That was rather unexpected! And I love the unexpected. Ahh.. I can go on and on rambling about the movie and/or art..

But the party didn't end with the movie marathon. Kindos and I went downstairs and joined the bunch on brm's keyboard and lulu's guitar. (He's so gonna hate me for calling him lulu!.. but that's part of the bullying on birruuyy's behalf).. Sang a couple of tones.. sixpence none the richer's kiss me.. a bit or peterpan.. the latest from acha septriasa.. (love the song!).. and some others.. then back to the joystick for kickoffs!.. Hhahah.. Beat Y on the first game then kept losing.. my battery was dying out.. and for the first time beat lulu on his own game!..
and shame on kindosbuenos.. (I swear that girl is like this small farthing machine!).. hahha.. (she's gonna kill me isn't she?!) .. ahh.. ohh well.. I mean dang.. you sooo need to learn your manners.. but yeah, I'm not your mother, so learn it yourself.. keke! (I mean fart all you want.. but not around us!.. 10 km will do)... Haha.. I'm so so dead for writing this down.. Haha.. Bah ngalih ku eh...

Today was rather productive.. so we girls deserve a pat on the back.. (Wait.. let me just stretch my arm out and pat myself.. haha)... Finished the Programming Language Definition and Implementation (fuwwhh... that was long!) coursework.. but haven't quite completed it 100%.. gotta do the write up.. maybe later.. after I decided to wake up.. haha!

Family portrait part 1: Trafalgar Square

Hahha... It will do for now.. They are my family here after all.. Hehe.. Hmm.. Macam kekurangan pompuan kan.. Cuba kalau ada bis si venus.. si nachos... si birruuyyy.. siapa lagi.... semua lah the gurls yang missing atu.. Kalau ada bisai kali.. "auw banaaa jua"..

Je ne sais pas..Yo no se... Wa poo che taw..

Inda ku tau!..

Ahh.. kan mental ku memikirkan exams ani.. But then.. I'm not "so" stressed out about it... I mean compared to my previous uni exams. I've been a good girl for the past few days. :) Have I?.. Yes I have!! (Denial!!)... Grr.. One thing for sure: you can't lie to yourself no matter what!. But I studied!.. Well finished 'Programming Language Definition and Implementation' at least! That's not so bad.. issit??

Today aku brabisly bummed around.... Delibarately though!. So no guilts. Keke... Okay maybe a teeny weeny bit, but that's about it. Hehe..NOT!.....
I can't sleep normally! I mean I sleep normally...... I mean I close my eyes when I sleep....... That's still normal right? .........Hehe. What I meant is that I can't sleep till it's morning! I'll go to bed at like 3.30 am but my eyes will only 'shutdown' at 5 or 6 am! Ahhh.. It's driving me nuts. I mean peanuts.. or walnuts.. or wateva! Winning eleven punya pasal.... Owh! Speaking of winning11, I won for the first time in my life! .............Whahaha.. a bit exaggerating.. but nevermind. Exaggerating = excitingly exciting!. Grkkk.. Haha.. and the premier loser award goes to... (drum rolls...) .... Nuai!.. ahhaha............ I bet Y doesn't wanna play with me anymore.. In fact I think none of the guys would wanna play with me nemore. T.T.. Oh well...

The guys were playing football downstairs, in the central pavement of Birkbeck Court................. Wasabi, kmbings and me we're cheering from 16C4's window...............

"Goooo Braim.. Go Nuaii!!... Eh Eh.. bisai bisai Vasss.. Bah .. ah ah... Si Hasayoyooo!!..".

If we were to get in trouble, it would be us - the spectators - to blame. Bising bah!.. Hahah... And this weird thing bout kindos's private property dangling at the corner of the heater control knob, which wasabi kept.............................. hahahahahahahhah (let me laugh first.. Sorry.. can't stand it!)........ dropping.............. and pickin......But that wasn't all to it. Sorry but our imagination went wild!.. So we started talking about maybe throwing stuff to the guys downstairs. Haha.. when I say stuff, I meant.............. "girl's stuff".. ahhaha.. yup your imagination is just as wild as us. And then it would land on one their heads, while they try to shoot a goal with their vision clogged up...Ok enuf!! Hahha..Okay just one more thing.. just one.. (hahaha.. rotf...! Ok.. breath in.. breath out.. hfffff)............ Ok so maybe use em as pom-poms hahaha.. and hooking em on the window knob.. hahah.. ok enuf said...............!

The things that IMAGINATION does to you: good and bad.

So we were watching an Indonesian dvd- "Heart". Grrhhhh........ Che' eeezzy!.................. No way I'm gonna watch it again.. It was just waaaaayyyyyyyyy toooooooo kejuu..............!.
Though, must admit it was sad. Though, again, it was too typical... too predictable.. Bluugghhh.. The soundtrack outstands the movie. Should totally ignore the movie and enjoy the song. I mean seriously, how ignorant can a guy be!............Like, helllllll'............. lllloooo................. Isn't it obvious when your bestfriend likes you. I mean shouldn't YOU know your bestfriend better than neone else.?? Uhh.. well.. It was just another movie.. I have to say I enjoyed "Bujang Senang" much more than "Heart". Though Apek's character is on replay mode, it never fails to me laugh......!!!!

Enuf said.. Hmm.. I was just re-organising my old folders.. and look what I found..!

Cute old- "young" me

Bari malu banar...

Ahh.. aku mau balik Brunei!... I miss everyone.. miss my mom, miss daddy, miss ydah and abang.. miss my gigantic family.. miss cdah, miss nisa, miss k miming, miss ka shiq, (memang pun dorang semua "miss" - mun balum kahwin.. keke.. I'm bored), miss ka sit (though she's in UK).. apakan.. Miss my friends!!!! Miss Venus, Nachos, Birruuyy, si jubur hitam, Drizzling.. semua lah.. Hmph Hmph Hmph.. Sigh................................................................................................. I want to be with the people I love!!

I love Exams not

Assalamualaikum Warrahmatullahhi Wabarakatuh

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha..

Happy New Year!..

Merry Christmas..

Loads of celebration for the past few days..

So welcome 2007. Stayed up last nite.. wayyyyyy up.. I mean HaHa!.. History of my new year..
So I achieved one of new years resolution already. (To get a goal in win11!) Sorry Vsc.. better luck next time.. Grrr.. Had a big hangover after that.. Seriously!. I mean I was up till 6 or so.. So we were preoccupied with naruto, chess and card that we forgot about the countdown. "oh well.. happy new year everyone".. It would have been different if I was home.. BBQ, karoake, late nite movies, PJ parties, ringing radio DJs.. Uhh.. Those times.. Those good times..

Uhhuh... Exams just about the begin.. And here comes another phase in my life where I start to indulge within the thickness of my notes... The odour of ink and damp paper.. mixed with the chill of the nite biting my skin.. grrrrrr.. cooolllldddd... Literally burning the midnight oil.. 5 subjects.. 5 exams... 5 bunch of notes..+ a book for Comp Arch.

So I have this paper pinned up against my wall which reads "MEMBACA JAMBATAN ILMU".. This is rather personal.. you see, I have this thing against reading.. Well no, that's not exactly it. I have this thing where reading isn't the top of my priority list. So this phrase is my booster should I say? Yeah, to keep my fuel running smoothly and steadily.. I hope!

Ya Rabbi, I so forgot to call home.. I missed this year's sembalih-ing!.. Oww.. I still remember that cow's head at tangah's.. ehhe... Yup.. gross but sweeeeeeet! Ha Ha..

Well... my notes are calling me! Yup.. they did.. They said "come and read me.. come!".. (Spookeh)

Holi Holiday!

Welcome to Barcelona

Just came back from Barc. Not bad. It would've been excellent if it weren't for a series of U E's. Mishaps happen. But Mishaps don't happen twice.


Too many pics to upload. Can't decide which is the best. Hmph.. seems like the trip to Barc was almost complete. But then.. we missed Tibidabo! The most important part of MGII!. That's where he planned to proposed. That's where he had a car crash. That's where he lost his memory and the story follows.


A couple of weeks back, went to HK. Great. Tiring. Exhausting. Something tells me I've said these words, but nevermind. I loved everybit of it, from meeting new people from all over the world... to santai-ing at Disneyland.

Bucket de la Bucket